When Jeong Taeui yelled those words, Ilay burst out laughing. The moment that smile faded from his lips, his cold, dark eyes fell on Jeong Taeui.

“With people like him, no matter how I try to persuade him to let you go, he won’t let you go,” Ilay said, looking at him. Faced with that frightening gaze, Jeong Taeui could only blink and stare at Ilay with a blank mind, confused by those words.

He frowned, looking at Ilay in bewilderment, trying to say something but not knowing what to say.

What was it? Jeong Taeui had thought he had a lot to say to him, but he didn’t know which to say first.

“Um……”

No matter where he went or what he did, even if that guy didn’t intend to let him go, it was not something he could decide…… Should he start by saying that?

“But….”

Or did Ilay think someone without any mental issues like him would let him go smoothly? Should he start with that?

“Furthermore….”

Or the more important thing, how could Ilay shamelessly to imply he had no mental issues…… Should he start with this?

Those thoughts swirled in Jeong Taeui’s mind. But all he could say was the first word of each sentence. In the end, he gave up, lowered his head, sighed, and rubbed his forehead, speaking in a weary voice.

“I didn’t expect you to have a side like this……Indeed…. I still can’t understand you.”

Perhaps his life wouldn’t end here soon.

Suddenly, a wave of exhaustion washed over him, making him want to lie down right there. The exhaustion came from both his body and mind.

Today was a tough day. He had to absorb too much information that he didn’t want to know, hear, or see.

He just wanted to end today like this, soak in a hot bath, then crawl into bed and sleep without thinking.

Alright, let’s go back to the room. Jeong Taeui thought as he lifted his heavy eyelids.

His gaze met Ilay’s, who was watching him.

He knew Ilay was sitting there, but facing the gaze that hadn’t left him for a second since Ilay walked into this room made Jeong Taeui’s shoulders tense involuntarily.

Those beautiful hands were lightly tapping on the bedside table. He couldn’t fathom what Ilay was thinking as he quietly watched him with emotions he couldn’t understand.

“Ilay….”

The moment Jeong Taeui called his name.

Ilay’s foot slowly traced a circle on his foot, then lifted and brushed against his ankle and calf. Little by little.

“Ego…. Alright, I’ve roughly said everything I need to say, so now listen carefully.”

His gentle tone, whispering into his ear, made Jeong Taeui tense up despite its lightness.

Jeong Taeui frowned. Oh, he had forgotten.

“Why are you here? huh? Jeong Taeil ‘A month before you return, I will leave first’ you said that. And sure enough, you left Berlin as you said.”

“Before that, you promised to stay home, but in the end, you showed up here.”

Ilay added, looking at him with eyes that left Jeong Taeui no way out.

Damn. He stepped on his foot.

Why does he keep stepping on it? Jeong Taeui slowly pulled his foot away from Ilay’s. However, Ilay’s fierce foot pressed lightly under his ankle, so Jeong Taeui couldn’t do anything.

“Are you planning to run away?”

Ilay asked. However, even as he asked, it seemed he didn’t truly believe that. His toes tapped lightly on the top of Jeong Taeui’s foot.

Of course, he had no intention of running away. But when Ilay asked him that, he almost wanted to admit it right away….. However, if he did, he wasn’t sure he could handle the consequences, so Jeong Taeui gave the best answer he could.

“No….. I heard you were here, so I followed you.”

“………”

Jeong Taeui shamelessly looked up at Ilay, staring at him without blinking. His expression was very serious.

Ilay stared at him for a moment, then gave a highly unreasonable smile.

“Followed me here?”

“Of course.”

“Then I must have misheard. Two days ago, my brother called and said he was very distressed because Christ took a few books from him, so he asked for my help.”

Kyle. In the end, you still didn’t side with me.

Jeong Taeui silently blamed Kyle for a moment. Although he knew Kyle’s lies wouldn’t easily deceive Ilay, he just wanted him to help cover up a bit.

However, if Kyle had already contacted him, it was meaningless to cover up or not.

“If you knew, why did you ask?”

Jeong Taeui muttered gruffly and forcefully pulled his foot away from Ilay’s. His foot, which had been pressing on Jeong Taeui’s, gently fell to the floor.

Ilay raised an eyebrow, looking straight at Jeong Taeui.

“……”

After a while of silent, ambiguous staring. Jeong Taeui slowly and stealthily pushed his foot under Ilay’s again.

“………..Alright. So I’ll consider that I misunderstood my brother’s phone call. And since you even said something as cute as you came here for me, I’ll consider that too.”

“How kind.”

Jeong Taeui said seriously in a dry tone. Though it sounded sarcastic, he genuinely had no intention of mocking him. After all, it was fine.

Ilay glanced at Jeong Taeui’s expression, then faintly smiled with his deep, cold eyes. Jeong Taeui couldn’t understand those deep expressions. It was hard to know what he was thinking or his mood. However, with such an expression, it was certainly not something happy. He often wore this face when he was deep in thought about some troublesome issue.

Maybe it was a difficult problem he needed to think through carefully? But what difficult problem was he facing now?

Jeong Taeui couldn’t know. He could only guess based on what Ilay would say next.

“Taeil.”

Not long after, Ilay finally spoke. Jeong Taeui didn’t respond, only looking at him.

“Go back to Berlin.”

That was all he said. No further explanation.

………..Ah ha.

He didn’t know the reason, but he could vaguely understand what Ilay left unsaid.

“I’ve already come here?”

Jeong Taeui pretended not to understand, looking at him questioningly.

However, whether Ilay saw through his pretense or not, he just squinted at him and pressed harder on his slightly pained foot.

“Don’t you want to go back?”

His deep voice echoed above him. Surprisingly, it sounded more genuinely curious rather than oppressive, forcing him to return. Jeong Taeui looked at him, puzzled.

He didn’t dislike going back. He had no reason to stay here and no reason to want to stay. In Berlin, he was much more comfortable both physically and mentally.

However, he still hadn’t found the books for Kyle. This was a rare chance to help Kyle, and if he could, he wanted to find the books for him.

Moreover…

“………”

Jeong Taeui glanced at Christoph, sleeping behind him. Seeing that, Ilay raised an eyebrow, looking at him.

“I want to stay a bit longer….. Is there any reason I shouldn’t be here?”

Because the sight of the boy lying silently on the bed was very unsettling.

He couldn’t do anything. But the boy’s condition might be so dangerous that he couldn’t leave now.

“Does Christoph worry you?”

Ilay’s voice echoed in his ear.

Jeong Taeui fell silent for a moment.

They had been sitting a certain distance apart, their knees and feet touching. But when he looked away from Christoph, Ilay had left the bedside table and was right in front of Jeong Taeui. He directly stepped on Jeong Taeui’s foot, putting his weight on his toes.

“Taeil. Stop here. Don’t go any further.”

That voice gently brushed against his ear.

He had thought Ilay would soon lift his foot off his, but the moment that weight disappeared, his whole body fell onto the bed.

“Hey wait….. wait…. stop.”

Ilay pushed Jeong Taeui onto the bed and lay on top of him. Now his whole body weight was pressing down on him. Jeong Taeui, pushed down in a moment of carelessness, could only look to the side in confusion. Right beside him, less than an arm’s length away, Christoph lay there.

“Hey, hey, why here? Please go somewhere else.”

Suddenly, he remembered Johan’s words: “Grilled pine mushrooms are delicious; you can eat them anytime, anywhere.”

Jeong Taeui quickly dismissed the thought, whispering as cold sweat formed.

“My room is right next door…. Hey.”

“But because it’s Christ, I let it be.”

Ilay ignored Jeong Taeui’s words. He spoke as he slowly licked from his ear to his cheek, then suddenly grabbed Jeong Taeui’s lower body.

Jeong Taeui could only take a deep breath.

Although Ilay grabbed it through his pants, his large hand accurately grasped Jeong Taeui’s member and gently pressed down.

He looked down at him from a very close distance, close enough that their noses occasionally touched. Contrary to the slow movements of his hand below, which had begun to heat up, Ilay calmly spoke.

“Taeil. I know the face you like isn’t this sculpted face, so I didn’t say anything even when you followed closely and sided with him.”

“Yes, and because he has severe contact phobia.”

Ilay said, then licked and sucked hard on Taeui’s lips. Ilay sucked so hard that his lower lip hurt for a moment. But the real problem was below.

His member ached under Ilay’s hand, which was squeezing his groin. And it wasn’t just the pain. Even when trying to push him away, Ilay didn’t budge at all, despite knowing it was involuntary. On the contrary, it felt as if he was breathing harder.

This was a big problem.

Jeong Taeui glanced to the side. Even though the chloroform would prevent Christoph from waking up quickly, the fact that another person was lying next to him was an unchangeable reality.

“So stop here, don’t try to go any further.”

Ilay said in a low voice, then sucked his lips hard again. It was as if he wanted to test which part would be more stimulated, the upper or the lower.

He roughly squeezed Jeong Taeui’s member and closely observed every expression he made.

Jeong Taeui could feel the intense gaze and frowned, turning his head away.

There it was again, his nasty habit.

Jeong Taeui couldn’t remember when this habit started, but when he was aroused and excited, Ilay would stare intently at Jeong Taeui’s expressions until he was overwhelmed by the intense stimulation from Ilay. Sometimes, Ilay would even stimulate him until he climaxed, then block his penis so he couldn’t ejaculate.

When Jeong Taeui was trembling and didn’t know what to do, Ilay would narrow his eyes and stare at his face for a long time. It seemed that Ilay really enjoyed those moments. But Jeong Taeui thought those eyes were perhaps the most cruel in the world.

Currently, he was only stimulating him through his clothes, and Jeong Taeui’s mind was distracted by the surroundings, so it hadn’t reached the point where he couldn’t bear it and resulted in extreme embarrassment and anguish he would remember later. However, he couldn’t help but feel uncomfortable as Ilay kept staring at his extremely excited face.

“Stop looking…”

“Why can’t I look at what’s mine?” – Ilay responded, pulling Jeong Taeui’s hand away from his face when he tried to cover it and biting his cheek lightly.

“Ilay, please, um…—”

“Ggo back to Berlin” – Ilay whispered into his ear as Jeong Taeui was about to raise his hand again.

At that moment, Jeong Taeui could only close his mouth and look at him.

Ilay looked at Jeong Taeui’s flushed face with satisfaction, but there was still a hint of coldness.

Suddenly, a question, similar to the discomfort he had felt for so long, surfaced in his mind.

Unlike usual, this time Ilay was insisting that he stay home. Recalling the first time they met here, the cold face behind his invisible surprise came to mind.

…Based on just those points, the simplest conclusion could be that Ilay had quietly set up another home here… Damn. He wanted to think more thoroughly, but the hands below kept distracting him…

Jeong Taeui irritably looked at his pale hands that were continuously massaging his gradually rising erection. He tried hard to raise his head and shake off the thought that Ilay had already set up another home here.

… However, it was really difficult to organize his thoughts when his body was being tormented.

“It’s not about Berlin or Dresden, right?”

That was all Jeong Taeui could ask between his heavy breaths.

Then suddenly.

The hand massaging Jeong Taeui’s lower body paused for a moment.

The lips that had been licking his cheek, the face that had been close to his nose, now were just an inch away.

Facing that expressionless face, Jeong Taeui could only blink and look at him.

“…Uh…?!”

A question flashed through his mind.

“Good feelings aren’t always good…”

Jeong Taeui vaguely heard him whisper as if talking to himself.

At the same time.

“…Ah!”

The hand gripping his lower body suddenly exerted more force. His fingers precisely hit the spot under his penis and kept rubbing. That was the most sensitive area of his body. It felt like all his senses became clearer as they rubbed through the fabric.

“Wait a minute, wait, wai-…!”

Jeong Taeui couldn’t speak because of the intense friction causing pain.

His lower body was hard and bulging through his pants. The large hand on his groin could feel the wetness starting at the tip.

He didn’t even have time to worry about the discomfort of his wet underwear.

Ilay bit his lip hard while sucking Jeong Taeui’s tongue, and at that moment, Jeong Taeui climaxed.

“…! …!!”

Once, twice, holding the trembling Jeong Taeui in his arms, Ilay whispered something to him.

His voice was too quiet.

In that moment of climax, Jeong Taeui couldn’t understand the words.

“But… since we’ve already met here, I’d feel bad sending you back now. Anyway, it’s only a month.”

Jeong Taeui looked at his lips moving in front of him with bewildered eyes. It seemed like he had said something important that he should have listened to carefully, but he couldn’t hear it.

Jeong Taeui was lost for a moment in the exhaustion that followed his climax. He suddenly spoke unconsciously.

“Aren’t you going to do it?” 

Only after those words left his mouth did he realize.

Oh no. His heart chilled for a moment.

Wait a minute, wait a minute. It’s bad enough he did something inappropriate on someone else’s bed – even though the owner was right next to him – and now he had said something stupid?

No, that’s not it. It’s just that doing it here is a bit weird, that’s all he meant. Ilay, looking down at Jeong Taeui’s flustered state after saying that, smirked and got off him. Jeong Taeui watched in embarrassment as Ilay walked to the window and looked outside as if sensing something.

What’s wrong with this guy… Jeong Taeui looked at him with suspicion, but soon heard the sound of a car pulling into the yard. The headlights shone through the window.

For a moment, he wondered who could be arriving so late at night and then remembered the car. Thinking back, it was time for Richard to return from the hospital.

Ilay stood by the window, silently watching outside. He was tapping lightly on the window. Jeong Taeui knew that even if he tried talking now, he might not get a response.

The car’s sound faded, and Ilay watched it until it was completely out of sight. His eyes, calmly observing something, remained looking outside for a moment even after the car was gone. Only after the space was completely silent again did he turn away from the window.

Jeong Taeui sat up on the bed and looked at Ilay.

Something was strange. Something uncomfortable lingered in a corner of his mind, making him uneasy.

Jeong Taeui tilted his head, thinking for a while but couldn’t figure out what it was, so he sighed. Then he looked at Ilay again.

“…”

Thinking back, just a moment ago, he had been trembling on the bed.

Somehow, he felt uneasy when the previous routine wasn’t followed (after doing this xx, then that xxx). It felt like his everyday life had suddenly turned upside down and fallen into an unknown place. Ilay wasn’t someone to be like this, and thinking about it, the suspicion deepened, making him extremely uncomfortable.

In such moments, he thought it was better to just finish it off and end it refreshingly.

“…….”

But honestly, he didn’t want to bring it up. For his safety and a brighter tomorrow, he really didn’t want to talk about it.

He also felt a bit ashamed to say it. But if he left it alone, he would feel uneasy.

“…Aren’t you going to do it? …But even if you do, not in this room.”

After saying that, Jeong Taeui added another condition for precaution.

Yes, he was ready to die. With his current mood, he felt he could do anything as long as it wasn’t in this room, on this bed, next to where the room’s owner was sleeping soundly.

He really felt like he would die from exhaustion.

All day today, he had been exhausted physically and mentally, so his whole body felt like a water-soaked cotton ball.

If he could just collapse and sleep like this, it would be blissful.

But he could only push those small regrets aside.

Ilay stood by the window, silently watching Jeong Taeui. He seemed lost in thought, but his eyes never left him for a second.

Suddenly, his gaze seemed to fixate on Jeong Taeui’s cheek. Was there something on his cheek? Was there a fly? Ilay’s eyes, which had been intently looking at his cheek, seemed to grow cold for a moment. Then he clicked his tongue in dissatisfaction. (Taeui’s bruise)

But in an instant, he returned to his usual expression, stepped away from the window, and headed straight for the door.

“Uh…?”

Jeong Taeui watched him in confusion. Ilay grabbed the doorknob and glanced at Jeong Taeui.

“If you’re planning to stay in Berlin for a while longer, it’s fine if I don’t do it now. If I lay you on the bed and properly take off your clothes, you might fall asleep, and I’m not so urgent that I’d do it with someone sleeping like a corpse.”

Liar.

There was a time before when he had exhausted himself fixing the roof, almost passing out, and Ilay had still clung to him in his half-asleep state to satisfy his desires. He remembered it very well because the next day, he nearly died from muscle pain while continuing to fix the roof. But those words got stuck in his throat. He could only close his mouth in frustration.

Unbelievable, but could it be…

As Jeong Taeui watched him with a half-believing, half-doubting look, Ilay responded to his gaze before opening the door. And with a face devoid of any smile, he seriously said.

“Let me tell you, if you put yourself in danger again, I’ll make you understand that dying would be better.”

“…Hmm. I won’t do that anymore.”

Although he had no intention of risking his life for someone else’s business, Jeong Taeui chose to nod calmly instead of arguing back. Ilay threw a skeptical look at him.

After saying that, he opened the door and stepped out.

“Don’t sleep here. …Go back to your room.”

He said those words indifferently and closed the door.

“…Uh…?”

Jeong Taeui sat alone in the suddenly quiet room, staring at the closed door.

What could he say? It felt like he had just fallen into a new world…

Jeong Taeui tilted his head. No matter how much he thought, he couldn’t understand this situation.

Why did he suddenly change his mind like this? Did he change his mind or did he change? Or was it because this was someone else’s house and it was better not to be overly indulgent in philandering?…. No, that wasn’t it.

Even after coming up with a few hypotheses, he still couldn’t understand why Ilay suddenly left him alone without doing anything. He had already made up his mind, whether to die or half-die.

“This is so strange… Do I look that awful?”

Jeong Taeui wondered, scratching his cheek…. His hands suddenly stopped.

His outer cheek was swollen, and the inside was torn. He couldn’t even touch it because it was so hot, feeling like his bone was breaking.

Because Ilay had distracted him, he had forgotten about that.

Thinking back, he had intended to grumble a bit, but he had completely forgotten.

Earlier, outside, he had been hit hard enough to tear the inside of his cheek and swell one side of his face. By tomorrow, the injury would be so bad that he wouldn’t be able to open his eyes… Seeing Christoph getting beaten like that dozens of times, it was probably even worse.

For a moment, Jeong Taeui looked at Christoph with regret, thinking his sculpted face was even more damaged than his own.

“…”

Jeong Taeui sat on the bed and looked up at the ceiling. The ceiling was covered with dark wallpaper above.

“Don’t sleep here. …Go back to your room.”

Suddenly, that voice echoed in his mind.

Jeong Taeui sat still and scratched the back of his head.

“If I lay you on the bed and properly take off your clothes, you might fall asleep, and I’m not so urgent that I’d do it with someone sleeping like a corpse.”

He also remembered that voice, sounding like a laugh mixed with mockery.

Jeong Taeui scratched his head.

“It sounds simple, but it’s really confusing…”

He muttered without realizing it. Ha, Jeong Taeui sighed.

But despite sighing, he smiled. The low chuckles gradually turned into hearty laughter.

Then, he unconsciously held his cheek, frowned, and exclaimed – “Ah” – but then burst out laughing again.

[END VOL 1.]