Vol 4 – Chapter 21: The Lacking One 5 (18+)
The door wasnāt locked. Just a slight turn of the handle and the door would open, revealing the scene inside this room clearly.
If the person inside was Richard, they wouldnāt open the door without permission, but the fragile, unlocked door was too weak.
Richard looked down at Christophās dazed face ā lying face down ā with a pale complexion, staring back at him. The smile on Richardās lips became a bit more evident.
He slowly leaned down. Then, he brought his mouth close and whispered as if touching Christophās ear.
“Listen, Christoph. Right next to you is me, the scariest person in the world. And outside that door, there are about four to five people who are slightly less scary…….You decide. Will you endure the scariest thing, or will you endure four to five people who are slightly less scary?”
“……ā!!”
Christoph gritted his teeth. His lips completely drained of color, were clenched so tightly that they turned white.
His body trembled. The intense humiliation, anger, and anxiety were overwhelming his entire being. That trembling grew stronger and stronger.
“Richard? āāā – A voice called out from outside, full of curiosity, calling Richard’s name.
“Make your decisionāā” – Richardās voice whispered right into his ear.
“…….”
Christoph opened his trembling lips. Even the base of his tongue was shaking.
Those lips finally moved to say something, but no sound came out.
“What?” – Richard asked softly. The moment that gentle sound touched his ear, Christoph raised his head. His eyes devoid of any light, stared straight at Richard.
Christoph opened his mouth. And although his voice was shaky, he spoke clearly.
“Iād rather choose them than choose someone like you……!”
As those words left Christoph’s mouth, the smile on Richard’s face faded slightly.
Richard looked quietly at Christoph, who also said nothing and glared back. He gritted his trembling and pale lips as if trying to endure.
Richard moved away from Christophās ear, straightened up and looked down at him with cold eyes.
“You said youād rather choose 4-5 guys over me, didnāt you……? If thatās the case.”
Richard glanced at the door. Then he loudly called out.
“AHIM!”
Immediately, Christophās shoulders jerked. His trembling shoulders stopped for a moment then began shaking even more. A voice from outside asked, “Is there something wrong? Should I come in?”
Christoph let his head slump down onto the table. His mind buzzed. The buzzing sound in his ears made his head feel foggy.
At that moment.
“Thereās nothing. Just keep doing what youāre doing.”
Richard said.
As soon as those words hit Christophās ears, he flinched and opened his eyes. He slowly lifted his head and looked at Richard with a questioning gaze.
Although he seemed confused, the person outside simply replied, “Oh, okay then,” and walked away as Richard loosened the tie a bit.
“…….?”
“If you say you hate me that much, I wonāt do what you want. I wonāt fulfill your desires.”
Christoph looked at Richard in confusion as he unbuttoned the top button of his shirt. A slight sense of relief flashed in Christophās clear eyes. But that feeling vanished as soon as Richard unzipped his pants.
“Christoph, I will never do what you want. Remember that.”
His voice clearly carried a mix of anger that anyone could recognize.
Without any warning, a powerful thrust deep into his body left Christoph breathless.
The tight, unprepared entrance was forced open to accommodate the large intrusion and even as only half entered, cold sweat began to bead all over Christophās back.
“Whatās wrong, Christoph? You said youād rather face 4-5 guys than me. But now youāre frozen like thisāhow are you going to deal with that?”
Richard whispered behind him with heavy breaths. At the same time, he pushed his hips forward forcefully.
“…….!!”
Christoph bit his tongue hard. If he didnāt, a sound might escape even though he covered his mouth with the back of his hand.
He couldnāt let out a moan, a cry, or a scream. Only gasps and the sound of flesh hitting flesh, along with Richardās occasional whispering voice, filled the room. Therefore, every sound from outside was clearly audible.
Outside that door, a few people were still sitting and chatting. They had no idea what was happening inside and continued to laugh cheerfully. If they heard anything unusual inside, they might get curious and open the door to check.
“Christoph…… Christoph.”
Richard smiled and suddenly called Christophās name. His voice seemed both amused and mocking at the same time. After a sigh, he continued speaking.
“Youāre really born like this. Did you say you have a fear of physical contact? Or are you just overly sensitive?āāLook at your thing shaking.”
Richardās hand reached forward and grabbed Christophās genitals. The pale flesh in Richardās hand was slightly hardening and trembling slightly, just as he said.
Christoph, who hadnāt noticed this earlier, mumbled to himself: “No way.” and looked down. But before he could verify Richardās words, he turned away.
Christoph turned away because he saw Richardās hand gripping and shaking his weakly erect penis. Furthermore, even without looking, he could feel Richardās fingers pressing near its base.
“How long have you been enduring this with a body that canāt live without a man?”
“……āNo…… no……”
“Not that, huh? Then this thing thatās standing up and trembling isnāt yours? You mean to say the hole wriggling to be filled isnāt yours?”
Christoph felt his head burning.
Richardās crude, harsh words, without any restraint, seemed to accuse and scold Christoph.
Richardās other hand, which had been massaging Christophās chest all this time, wasnāt caressing but squeezing hard as if grasping a womanās breast. Every time he did so, he pinched the small bit of flesh between his chest, forcing Christoph to swallow down a moan that rose to his throat.
As he toyed with the hardened and protruding flesh, Richard suddenly had a thought and spoke with a hint of meaning.
“Did you know that if you inject a little medicine here every day and diligently massage it for a few weeks, this part can easily grow as big as a finger joint? Of course, youād have a hard time showing it to others for the rest of your life.”
His fingers gently stretched Christophās nipple as if to make a point. Christophās mind went numb as if doused with cold water.
In that moment, all pain, discomfort and humiliation were forgotten and he stared at Richard with a blank expression.
“If on a perfect sculpture, from head to toe, only this part is abnormally large, it would look very provocative. That would suit you perfectly.”
“……Donātādonāt do that…….”
Before he realized it, a trembling voice filled with fear escaped his mouth.
This man had lost his mind. Had something happened to this man who always smiled so gently? Thatās why he truly didnāt know what he would do next.
No matter what he did ā whether cutting with a knife, crushing bones with a hammer, or piercing the body with a gun ā it didnāt matter. But suddenly, a chill ran down his spine.
Richard looked at Christophās pale face and still smiled then pursed his lips.
“Christoph, I told you I would never do what you want. Have you forgotten?”
Christoph pressed his lips tightly together. He looked at Richard with trembling eyes as Richard squeezed his chest painfully. And then, at some point, he opened his mouth. The voice that came out was so shaky it was barely audible, like a whisper in the wind.
“Then…… go…… ahead……”
Christoph couldnāt finish his sentence, his face pale as he lowered his head. After a moment of silence, Richard suddenly burst out laughing.
The laughter was loud, joyful and so loud that it echoed outside the room.
The noise outside suddenly stopped.
“Christoph, HaHa, I was just joking. Anyway, only a few days are left, so thereās not enough time to do something like that……. But if I had enough time, I would have tried.”
Richard said with a relaxed smile on his lips.
Christoph still gritted his teeth while his face remained deathly pale. Richard whispered in his ear.
“But from now on, itās for real.”
As those words ended, he began moving his hips.
Pushing forcefully, violently and relentlessly. The sound of flesh slamming together was like loud, unhesitating blows.
“……! ……!!”
Christoph bit down hard on the back of his hand to suppress the moans. He reminded himself not to make a sound.
Richardās body was filling him up completely, but he kept driving in deeper, brutally pushing as if trying to push his internal organs higher.
“Ugh…… Ugh……ā!!”
Even though he bit down so hard that his hand was injured, a small whimper, like the cry of a small animal, eventually escaped from Christophās mouth.
Itās okay, itās okay, no one can hear this. But still, no sound should escape.
Christoph grew anxious. So this time, he pressed his palm hard against his mouth.
But at that moment, a large hand from behind suddenly grabbed Christophās wrist and pulled it away. When the soft whimpers spilled out of his now-uncovered mouth, Christophās shoulders shook as he tried to pull his hand back. But it was useless.
“I like to hear the sounds of your moans. Especially when you canāt hold back and start crying while your body shakes. Try moaning, let those outside hear it too.”
“……!!”
Christoph shook his head. His eyes burned.
“Then try to endure it.”
Richard said briefly. And then he began to thrust even more violently.
Christophās body screamed. The heavy thing was thrusting into every corner inside, creating an unbearable sensation.
No matter how hard he tried and suppressed it, the moans continued to escape from between Christophās lips. The soft sounds, like the wind, grew louder every time Richard slowly caressed his body and pushed in deeper.
He couldnāt bear it. His entire body trembled with fear. Even as he tried to suppress it, Christoph felt that if he let go, even just a little, cries and sobs would spill out and echo beyond the room.
His body was hot and trembling uncontrollably. The area between his legs was soaking wet.
“Ah……!!”
The moment Richard gripped Christophās penis and thrust into a certain spot inside, Christoph finally let out a small but sharp cry.
The sound of that cry seemed to have slipped outside, causing the noise outside to suddenly stop.
His heart turned cold. His body shook. Christoph stared at the floor with blurry eyes filled with tears. He bit his fingers hard, trying to swallow down the sound.
But he didnāt think he could endure it.
He felt that his moans, his sobs and his gasps would eventually escape outside.
Christoph opened his mouth, but he couldnāt speak for a moment and then finally whispered with a voice tinged with tears.
“Richard, please…… go easier…… just a little…….”
Seeing Christoph overwhelmed with humiliation and finally submitting to the shame, Richard slowly smiled.
A smile that was gentle as if filled with affection as he leaned close to Christophās ear and whispered softly, like a lullaby.
“I told you. I will never do what you want.”
“……ā!”
And then he thrust his hips hard again. Christoph tried to swallow the moan that was about to burst out as a scream.
His eyes widened, staring at his hand. Even so, he tried to suppress his breath, unable to stop the tears from streaming down.
“But I see you understand well, Christoph. You know how to speak correctly.”
A gentle voice whispered in his ear again.
Christoph looked at him with confused eyes as his mind replayed the words. Just now…… just now……?
Suddenly, memories came flooding back. Christoph involuntarily stiffened and clenched his fists. It felt like all the blood drained from his head, but right after that, a burning sensation surged up. It felt like flames rising from his neck.
Christophās trembling lips moved, but no words came out and he silently stared at Richard. However, Richard didnāt care as he grabbed Christophās hips tightly and pressed hard, forcing Christophās hips to spread wider as he pushed between them.
Relentlessly, violently, without mercy.
“……! A…… ugh…… ha ah……!!”
Christoph felt like his body was being hollowed out without mercy, making sounds that didnāt even seem like his own escape from his mouth. No matter how he tried to cover his mouth, Richard still held Christophās wrists tightly from behind, not letting him move freely.
“Please……!”
Finally, Christoph let out a cry that sounded like a scream.
A tear fell onto the table. He rubbed his blurred eyes, sobbing and gasping as he uttered.
“Harder…… a little…… harder…… more violently……!”
But the response to Christophās tearful plea was a brief silence, followed by a slow reply.
“What? When you speak while sobbing like that, itās hard to understand. Say it clearly so I can understand Christoph. If you donāt speak clearly, how will I know what you want?”
“……ā.”
Christoph swallowed a moan that sounded like a beast.
His eyes were burning. The tears wouldnāt stop flowing, making his eyes burn even more. But it wasnāt just his eyesāhis forehead, cheeks, ears, neck and entire body were also heating up, so much so that the burning sensation in his eyes seemed insignificant.
“Harder…… your…… down there…… push your thing in harder…… deeper, deeper inside me…… stir my body more violently……”
But the final words came out mixed with sobs. The tears made his eyes red and formed a small puddle under his face.
Richard chuckled quietly behind Christoph, burying his face in his arm. He laughed for a long time, seemingly satisfied, then suddenly bit hard on Christophās earlobe. A short moan escaped.
“Good boy, Christoph. You spoke so well that I should reward you…… Alright, Iāll do as you asked. While doing so, Iāll help you suppress your moans.”
A mocking, light voice whispered. Right after that, Richard grabbed Christophās chin and pressed his lips against Christophās. Richard began moving his hips while taking Christophās mouth as if he wanted to devour him. At the same time, Christophās eyes widened and he stopped breathing.
It felt as if everything before was just a joke, now turning into a storm sweeping over his body.
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Like a broken doll.
Christoph lay sprawled out on the round table. He had no strength left to move even a finger, lying sideways and motionless.
The sight of his naked, white body abandoned like a doll. A delicate doll, meticulously and carefully crafted.
If not for the slightly blinking blue eyes from time to time, it would have been easy to mistake him for a real doll.
His naked body was completely defiled.
From his earlobes, neck, chest, thighs, etc…… all over his body were bruises, faint handprints left wherever he was grabbed and white, sticky fluid clinging from his lower abdomen down to his thighs.
At that moment, Richard stepped out of the bathroom inside the room.
He looked so clean he could have walked straight out to a party, completely contrasting with Christophāwho lay weakly on the table. Richard stared at Christophās lifeless body on the table for a moment then walked over.
“……Spread your legs.”
He was holding a warm towel.
However, Christoph didnāt move even when called as if he didnāt hear. He might have opened his eyes, but his mind had drifted far away.
Richard seemed quite irritated and snorted. He flipped Christoph over and forced his legs open. The moment the warm towel touched the inside of his thigh, his leg jerked, but there was no effort to resist or avoid it. Richard silently and thoroughly wiped the inside of his thighs, which were now exposed and vulnerable.
After going back and forth to the bathroom 3-4 times to rinse the towel, Christophās body was finally clean again.
Except for the bruises and handprints that wouldnāt fade for a few days, his body had returned to its original white and clean state.
“What are you planning……?”
Christoph suddenly murmured in a hoarse voice. Richard didnāt answer that sigh-like question. Christoph didnāt seem to expect an answer either, so he didnāt ask further.
A long silence followed.
Christoph continued to lie there like a doll and Richard stood beside him, crossing his arms and looking at him with cold eyes. Suddenly, Richard gently stroked a few strands of Christophās hair. Then he pulled his hand back.
At that moment, Christophās shoulders seemed to tremble slightly.
He slowly curled up and almost lay face down on his arm.
“How far…… how far can I go……”
His trembling voice matched his shaking shoulders as if they were shrinking.
His body trembled continuously for a long time. The arm covering his face was soaked with tears that wouldnāt stop.
Richard watched Christoph quietly as he trembled and when he saw his shoulders gradually stop shaking, Richard gently reached out his hand. He cupped Christophās cheek from behind. Richardās hand felt the trembling.
Richard leaned down.
He silently kissed Christophās exposed ear and that ear trembled. He continued moving his lips down Christophās neck, shoulders and back, following the curves of his smooth white skin. Every time his lips touched, Christophās body jerked.
Richard slowly and patiently kissed all over Christophās body then gently lifted the arm covering Christophās face.
Christoph reflexively tried to use his strength to hold his arm in place, but soon after, he gave up and let Richard take his arm.
Lying face down on the round table with his tear-soaked face, Christoph watched as Richard gently placed his lips on every spot from his shoulder to his arm and finally to his fingertips.
Every time Richardās lips lightly brushed and pulled away as if smelling a flower, Christophās hand would twitch. However, he didnāt push Richardās hand away.
Finally, Richard lowered his head closer to Christophās face.
As Christoph barely blinked, Richard pressed his lips against the tear-soaked area around his eyes and then licked away the tears. He also slowly licked the wet cheek and finally, he licked the lips. Just as Richard pulled away, he leaned down again and licked them once more.
The ticklish, unfamiliar sensation made Christophās body shudder slightly. Richard gently embraced Christophās shoulders from behind.
Richard stayed in that position for a while without moving.
Christoph remained still in his embrace, his body tense and holding his breath. His whole body had naturally become stiff.
Suddenly, a low chuckle came from behind. It was a cold laugh, tinged with a bit of mockery and Richard spoke with a tone full of sarcasm:
“Iām sure that in some peopleās minds, these actions could be considered the acts of lovers…… Isnāt that ridiculous? The idea that someone might think whatās happening between you and me is āsharing love’.”
With those words, Richard tightened his embrace around Christoph.
Christoph winced, his body tensing even more. But instead of trying to remove the arms wrapped tightly around his shoulders and waist, he simply looked at them with a worried and confused gaze.
Even though the gentle, steady breathing from behind tickled the back of his neck, Christoph didnāt turn around.
[END VOL 4]
wow wtf is this relationship, theyre so fkd up… I need to see Christopher happy in a any way, baby suffered way too much..
Theres like no sane characters in this story and still somehow this guy richard….. there is something soooo wrong with his head ā¤ļø
Ew
richard this son of a bitch my resentment towards him is unending and i canāt even fathom that they somehow end up together and i will never accept it. Christoph deserves so much much better than all this my heart genuinely bleeds for him such a tragedy of a character
I mean I don’t understand how the fuck is chris gonna fall for him this is so fucked up
Is he mentally ill
Bro has a loving family friends money, the whole package and is still doing ts and enjoying it šš„ skill issue at this point
Richard can f go away from here no one wants you
I want richard to suffer so bad and beg for chris.
Passion tops wont suffer as much, but compared to other tops, Richard is the only one having proper redemption arc.
The only obvious suffering from passion tops are how they live with anxiety for the rest of their lives lol. Yuji really loves them toxic semes, even in her other novel there’s a top even more manipulative than Richard, it’s like she wants to make more version with more hardcore unhinged personalities lol
I like that he’ll always suffer not being Christoph’s first love… And how he knows that deep down Christoph would still take Tae if he could. I just feel sorry for Christoph.
haha so true. Richard has to live his life knowing that he will never be the only man in Christoph’s life and that he cannot beat the kind of affection Christoph will always have for Tay
Your username ššš¤£š¤£
life long anxiety is definitely not enough suffering for a man like richard.. man i feel so bad for these bottoms š¢
crying once again for chris šššš richard get ur stinky ass away from chris
I truly can’t stand Richard I kept scrolling too fastly
Skipped the whole chapter, I feel bad for future manhwa readers who have to read Chris getting r@ped every week
āIām sure that in some peopleās minds, these actions could be considered the acts of loversā¦ā¦ Isnāt that ridiculous? The idea that someone might think whatās happening between you and me is āsharing loveā.ā
Motherfucker, I can assure you NOBODY is thinking chris and you are ‘sharing love’. Fucking hell, rape is one thing but the psychological torture he put him through is fucking insane.
YOU FUCKASS NOBODY THINKS THAT… YOU ABUSED AND HARASSED HIM BOTH MENTALLY AMD PHYSICALLY JUST CUS OF YOUR ATOM SIZED EGO
KYS!!
My heart’s freaking breaking… i do not have the guts to read it properly, i can’t handle Chris’ agonizing pleas
āIām sure that in some peopleās minds, these actions could be considered the acts of loversā¦ā¦ Isnāt that ridiculous? The idea that someone might think whatās happening between you and me is āsharing loveā.ā
No, nobody does. It’s your sick twisted mind, that thinks that. You might be intelligent but the only Emotional IQ you have, is how to manipulate other people emotionally. You do not understand your own actions and feelings.
AND..Chris getting an errection and moaning is NOT because he starts to enjoy this. It’s all physical and psychological reactions. The subconscious mind tries to protect you by accomodating to the torture. Instead of pain the body starts reacting by signaling it as ‘pleasure’. If it wouldn’t do it your conscious mind would go crazy and dilirious.
Chris is already emotionally restricted and he can’t do anything about it. He also doesn’t ask or tries to research about what is happening to him, because he doesn’t see it as what it is and can’t even put it into words. And because Richard is manipulating him by telling him lies and his version of twisted truths (That’s pleasure. You’re actually anjoying this. Using his mother to make him obey, etc.), Chris only has him as reference. I doubt that anything romatic happening between the two of them would ever be any type of love. More like Stockholm Syndrom on Chris’ side.
It’s resignation, giving up the fight, emotional and psychological exaustion and getting used to the situationship.
PS: Wish you were dea*, Richard.
disgusting.
pukinanginang toh puakinganna ka kampon ng demonyo amputangingng hayop amputa
AM i the only one who gets reminded of ilay during this, he used to the same to tay
after reading this, Ilay’s version as Crazy Rick suddenly looks like a saint to me.
my heart aches so much for Chris.š
UGH MAKE IT STOP