The moment those strong fingers grabbed his thigh and lifted it – although it was useless – Jeong Taeui suddenly thought that if he pushed Ilay away now, he might face consequences that would make him cry. But while he hesitated, reluctant to lose the warmth of the hand holding his frozen leg, his worry became unnecessary. 

Because below Ilay’s waist, the heavy, solid mass was approaching him. As soon as he felt the large member about to penetrate him, the hand gripping Jeong Taeui’s arm tightened even more.

“……—Ilay.”

“You’ve rested enough.”

Ilay interrupted just as Jeong Taeui called his name, as if not hearing him.

Ilay was right, he had rested enough. Now Jeong Taeui no longer felt tired from the long journey to get here, and his body wasn’t in any particular discomfort anymore. And he wasn’t even hungry.

Thinking back, it had been a long time since Ilay had touched him like this. Jeong Taeui recalled his memories and remembered the first day he arrived on the island. Perhaps it had been since then. Yes, since he had apologized, he hadn’t touched him.

Suddenly, a truth he had completely forgotten surfaced in his mind.

Although it was unimaginable if that truth really occurred, it seemed there was still a bit of humanity in even this inhumane man named Ilay RieGrow.

“…….”

Suddenly, Taeui’s face turned red again, and the truth made him feel a bit embarrassed.

Some might think he was embarrassed to say someone liked him with his face flushed like this. But something was really happening in his heart.

But……

At that moment, Ilay was placing kisses on Jeong Taeui’s cheek, leaning down slightly. He looked straight into his eyes.

Even though he wasn’t thinking anything bad, Jeong Taeui felt guilty and clammed up because Ilay was sharp enough to read everything in his mind. No, even on second thought, those thoughts were really unrealistic, even far-fetched, so he didn’t know what to say.

“You were thinking about something very interesting. I could hear your eyes rolling.”

Ilay whispered, looking down at Jeong Taeui. A hint of a smile flickered in his deep voice.

Yes, it was surely a very interesting idea. One part interesting, nine parts terrifying, and unable to verify if it was true, just thinking about it was unbearable.

“Taei, stop thinking.”

His sharp teeth pierced his skin. Jeong Taeui shook his head and tried to turn away, but Ilay lifted his hand to turn his face back. His lips lowered and pressed against Jeong Taeui’s.

Suddenly, a strange sensation arose in Jeong Taeui’s mind. A feeling that had crept into his heart for a moment earlier.

He had kissed these lips.

He had kissed Ilay while watching him sleep. Although the fleeting memory of that moment had disappeared like a passing breeze in his mind, when their lips met again, the familiar sensation returned.

Alright. Maybe at that moment, looking down at Ilay’s sleeping face, he had thought he wanted to touch those lips. It was like an instinctual desire.

Alright, alright, alright. He just wanted to understand why he did it.

Jeong Taeui silently looked at Ilay, feeling the familiar tongue intertwining with his. His face was so close that he couldn’t discern the emotions on Ilay’s face. But he could feel Ilay watching him.

Perhaps sensing Jeong Taeui’s distracted gaze, Ilay leaned down, sucking on his lips until it hurt.

“It seems like you’ve lost your mind today……— Is it because you’ve seen him after a long time?”

With those words, he bit Jeong Taeui’s lower lip. Ilay was silent for a moment, then touched Jeong Taeui’s trembling shoulder and whispered.

“Alright, actually even when you were in the organization, your mind couldn’t stay away from him…… Like a child, all your emotions are written on your face.”

“…….”

“Have you slept with him?”

His voice dropped to a low whisper. Jeong Taeui frowned at that hushed tone. He licked his sore lip and responded gloomily.

“Why do you care whether I’ve slept with him or not?”

“That kid has said many times that he likes you.”

Ilay whispered as if he were only talking to himself. Jeong Taeui frowned and glared at him. What was he thinking, asking him things he already knew? Like this……, like this, it was really…….

Once again, his heart pounded heavily in his chest. *Thump, thump, thump.*

A clicking sound echoed, immediately followed by a short scream as a sharp pain invaded his lips and teeth.

“Ah! Hey, that hurts……!”

“Taei, wrap your arms around me.”

“What?”

Their lips were intertwined, and his tongue was so tangled up he couldn’t pronounce anything correctly. It wasn’t until Ilay’s hand squeezed his buttocks tightly that Jeong Taeui understood what he meant.

He hurriedly wrapped his arms around Ilay’s neck. Ilay wouldn’t hesitate to bite his lip if Taeui delayed for even a second.

Like that day. He had felt a strange sensation. Even though Ilay had requested him to wrap his arms around his neck and hold him, it felt more like he had taken the initiative to hug and kiss Ilay.

“Alright, that’s it…… tighter.”

Whenever Jeong Taeui’s arms accidentally loosened even slightly, Ilay would growl, demanding he hold tighter, then bite his lip or cheek. He felt as if he were facing a hungry tiger in a deep forest. Jeong Taeui thought but said nothing. If he did, surely this hungry tiger would devour him whole.

“With him……”

Suddenly, he heard a whisper near his ear. The voice was so soft he could only vaguely hear it. “Jeong Taeui, what about you?” – He asked. Before he could respond, Ilay bit his cheek painfully.

“How did you say it? Did you use a gentlemanly face to say you liked him? Or did you say it with an embarrassed, shy look? Or did you say it while swaying your hips like a whore?”

His voice grew hoarse. Ilay fell silent after speaking as if angry at his own words, clicking his tongue. His hands kept removing Jeong Taeui’s clothes as if he wanted to tear them apart. The sound of clothes dropping to the floor was faint. Simultaneously, Jeong Taeui felt a hot mass pressing against his buttocks.

“Wait, why are you bringing this up and then getting angry at yourself……?”

“Taei. Tell me. How did you say it, huh? Tell me.”

Ilay lightly slapped Jeong Taeui’s buttocks. Even though it was light (by Ilay’s standards), the sharp pain and tingling sensation spread with the sound slap. Jeong Taeui yelled and whimpered: “Ouch!”, biting Ilay’s shoulder hard with tears in his eyes, but Ilay didn’t care.

“This bastard is crazy, getting angry out of nowhere and hitting people?”

“Don’t loosen your arms!”

Jeong Taeui yelled in anger, but Ilay yelled back at him.

Hearing that harsh tone, Jeong Taeui quickly wrapped his arms around Ilay’s neck again, thinking he was being a bit cowardly, but he quickly dismissed the thought. He hugged Ilay tightly, clicking his tongue and muttering right into his ear.

“What do you mean, how did I say it? Who thinks about things like that? I just said it normally. I like you*.”

(좋아해: I like you, which can be interpreted as either ‘I like you’ or ‘You like me’ in Korean, so Ilay might have interpreted it as ‘I like you’ :DD)

Jeong Taeui remembered he had said he liked him before. Now, recalling it felt nostalgic like an old faded photograph. 

“I like you.”

But those final words couldn’t leave his mouth; instead, Ilay swallowed them.

Jeong Taeui could hardly breathe under the fierce kiss that seemed to tear his mouth apart, and the next moment, he faced an even more brutal intrusion.

“Ah”

However, before he could realize what was about to invade him, it had already entered.

Jeong Taeui thought he saw a pale hand gripping his thigh, pushing it forward, and touching Ilay’s shoulder. At that moment, a light sound seemed to pierce between his legs. It might not have made any sound at all, but it seemed he actually heard it.

“…….—!!”

The scream trying to escape his gaping mouth was swallowed by Ilay once more.

His body felt like it was tearing apart. The head of the massive flesh suddenly thrust in without any warning, causing him to clench continuously inside, near the entrance. It slowly pushed deeper into him, then began a gentle in-and-out motion. Even though the small hole was wet, it was still too tight and struggled to accommodate the movement.

“Hey, ah, ha, uh……—huh…….!”

Jeong Taeui arched his back, struggling with his own body, continuously shaking his head, and tears welled up in his eyes. He wanted to crawl off the bed to escape the brutal weapon, but he couldn’t move at all because his body was firmly nailed down by Ilay’s member, which was deeply embedded in him and wasn’t coming out.

“Taei, Taei…….. Relax a bit, don’t cry, don’t cry……. there, it’s alright, it won’t tear…… yes, you’re doing well.”

“……Hold me, will you?”

Ilay’s brief words echoed in his ear as he gazed down at Jeong Taeui’s tear-filled eyes, grabbed his wrist, and guided him into a gentle deep kiss. His fingers wandered down to where their bodies were joined.

Jeong Taeui, who was half-conscious, suddenly came to his senses when he felt Ilay’s hand touch his own member. Damn, even though he held it several times a day when he went to the bathroom, the feeling of Ilay holding it was entirely different. It wasn’t fitting to think about this in the current situation, but the thought of comparing their members side by side suddenly popped into his mind.

Along with the pain as if his body was being torn apart and the pride of a man shattering once again, Jeong Taeui began to cry.

“You’re not human, you bastard, why are you shoving that thing into me like this? I’m dying from the pain, I’m dying from the pain.”

“I won’t hurt you anymore, I won’t hurt you, so tell me once more.”

“Tell you what, you bastard! Tell you what!”

Jeong Taeui shouted, but every time he uttered a word, his face turned pale because Ilay moved his lower body. Jeong Taeui felt like fainting, mumbling.

“Do something, either push it all the way in or pull it out, it’s stuck and can’t move, it’s killing me. Hurry up and do something, either push it in or pull it out.”

Jeong Taeui hugged his neck and cried. But like a nail hammered into a tight screw, Ilay’s member, with just the head inside his body, couldn’t move. Jeong Taeui suddenly cried, thinking about the sins he had committed in his past life.

At that moment, he just wanted to kill the bastard who had told him – “Don’t loosen your arms!” But he didn’t have the strength to do that, so he decided to strangle Ilay by hugging him tightly.

Ilay moved his lower body deeper into him while reaching for the drawer on the bedside table, rummaging around for a moment. Then Jeong Taeui heard a small click as if Ilay had picked something up.

Shortly after, something slick dripped down his buttocks, precisely where Ilay’s member was stuck. The cold, slippery liquid ran along Ilay’s shaft and dripped onto Jeong Taeui’s waist. It was lubricant.

Ilay moved with difficulty, the tight hole still gripping his member. The lubricant seeped in bit by bit until a squelching sound was heard, and the thing began to move.

Ah. This was the moment.

Although it wasn’t being pulled out, at least the previously stuck giant shaft was now showing signs of movement. Jeong Taeui stared at Ilay in a daze.

“Tell me again, Taei.”

The whisper in his ear sounded so gentle. Maybe his mind was too hazy from crying and screaming, which made the voice seem so sweet?

“You like me, tell me again.”

Still that gentle voice.

Suddenly, Jeong Taeui thought: “Ah!”, with a dazed mind.

This man was truly mentally disturbed. His thoughts were a tangled mess, his mind in disarray.

So, there was no way to escape anymore.

Jeong Taeui wrapped his arms tightly around Ilay’s neck and whispered hoarsely.

“I like you.”

“What?”

“I like you.”

Jeong Taeui murmured vaguely and closed his eyes. Ilay was silent for a moment, then began to slowly move his hips, gradually increasing his pace.

“Agh,… a,…. ah.”

Every thrust made Jeong Taeui nearly scream. Even though it was easier now for Ilay to move in and out, it only took a few seconds for Jeong Taeui to regret his words.

It felt like a massive piece of flesh was invading his body, relentlessly pushing in and filling his entire belly. Fear overwhelmed Jeong Taeui, making him feel like he was about to be torn apart.

Tears began to fall again. Ilay’s pale hand carefully wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes. Feeling the warm touch from those dry, warm hands, Jeong Taeui struggled to open his eyes. Ilay’s face appeared in his blurred vision, clouded by tears.

…….. He hadn’t opened his eyes or looked at Ilay earlier. Only now did he see this face.

Perhaps even Ilay himself wasn’t aware, but the emotions on his face as he looked down at Jeong Taeui, drenched in sweat and consumed by desire, seemed to reveal a hint of humanity, something Jeong Taeui had been trying not to think about for so long.

Jeong Taeui closed his eyes again and held Ilay’s neck tightly. The shaft flesh thrusting into him was still painful, and he felt like he could faint at any moment, yet strangely, his mind remained unusually clear.

What are we doing?

The answer was difficult. From Ilay’s gaze to his expressions, from his hands to his breath…… these things seemed to convey something clearly, yet it was too ambiguous.

He was in trouble.

For some reason, he felt like his heart was melting. The moment he realized this, Jeong Taeui was stunned, and then he remembered Ilay’s kiss from earlier.

He was going crazy.

Schizophrenia was wreaking havoc, stirring both his mind and heart. Look, he was holding onto a bastard like this without feeling any hatred. It was madness.

Jeong Taeui opened his eyes once more, looking at the ceiling over Ilay’s shoulder.

If this man liked him…… could it be like this? Was it because he said he liked him that Ilay was acting this way?

He struggled to breathe because he was filled below and felt like something was about to spill out. He wasn’t sure if he would die or if he would die at this very moment.

Jeong Taeui closed his eyes.

He had thought that besides his appearance, Ilay had nothing human about him. But now he realized that maybe Ilay was just like any other person. The hand gently caressing his cheek, the tongue lightly licking the tears from his eyelashes, the warm breath brushing against the tip of his nose—all of these things said otherwise.

“Taei.”

There it was again, that gentle voice calling his name.

“Taei.”

Once more, he whispered.

Jeong Taeui opened his eyes and met the gaze that was staring intently at him from up close.

He suddenly felt curious. Did this man know what kind of expression he had on his face? Jeong Taeui couldn’t look away from that strange yet inexplicably tender gaze that softened his heart.

This man was human too. Ilay also had the emotions that humans have.

For some reason, his chest tightened. Suddenly, he wanted to kiss Ilay’s lips once more. So he wrapped his arms tightly around him.

At that moment.

“I’m going to go in now.”

The short words came from Ilay’s mouth.

Jeong Taeui looked at him in confusion and said: “Umm……”, thinking vaguely, and then suddenly snapping to attention as if doused with cold water.

“What……?”

“Down there, I’m going to thrust in now. Relax, or you’ll get hurt.”

“What are you talking about? Isn’t it already all the way in?”

“……..There’s still half left…….be strong.”

Ilay was silent for a moment before saying this, just as Jeong Taeui cried out in shock when he was flipped over. Ilay quietly patted his buttocks. Maybe it was his extremely gentle voice that drove Jeong Taeui crazy, but his moving hips were anything but gentle.

And Jeong Taeui screamed, retracting the thoughts he had just entertained.

The idea that Ilay still had human-like feelings was utterly absurd and meaningless!