Richard seemed to have thrown all sense of pride and decorum into the trash. He kissed Christoph’s lips hurriedly and frantically, as if starving. Lips, tongue, cheeks, anywhere he could reach.

How long had it been?

How long had he yearned to do this?

A desire to do something deeper, but not knowing what to do next, he could only desperately suck on Christoph’s lips, pressing his tongue hard and licking his cheeks. Richard bit down on Christoph’s neck, hard enough that he had to swallow a cry of pain. He gnawed and sucked until red marks appeared.

Christoph was trapped in Richard’s embrace, unable to move. Richard held him so tightly that he couldn’t budge a finger, and every time Christoph tried to move, he tightened his grip as if afraid he would run away.

His shirt, unknowingly discarded at some point, was now soaked on the bathroom floor. His legs, previously bound by wet pants, were also freed at some point. His underwear had also disappeared without a trace. He didn’t even know when that had happened.

Christoph shuddered. The hot skin of another person touching his bare flesh. An unfamiliar sensation, almost frightening, washed over him. He instinctively wanted to shake off that feeling.

But.

“……―, Christoph, please, Chris――.”

Richard’s anxious voice reached his ears. The moment he heard that voice, Christoph unconsciously relaxed his body, which had been trying to pull away.

That hoarse, broken voice, for some reason, sounded like that of a small child. A weak and insecure child, clinging tightly to his mother’s skirt, afraid she would leave him.

Although it didn’t suit this man at all, that’s how it sounded to him. Perhaps because his voice was trembling slightly.

Because of that, Christoph didn’t push him away. Or rather, he couldn’t push him away. And Richard, slowly drawing Christoph into his arms, gradually became more fervent, and increasingly bolder.

His large hand paused slightly when it touched Christoph’s buttocks, then roughly grasped and kneaded them. That hand didn’t stop there, but continued further, rubbing and stroking his groin, the insides of his thighs, even the cleft between his legs.

“……―, Wait, Ri, ……―.”

Christoph’s body flinched. But that small sound was immediately swallowed by Richard. As if he didn’t want to hear anything else. His restless hands roamed all over his body as if he couldn’t wait any longer.

And meanwhile, his other hand trailed up Christoph’s abdomen, then accidentally brushed against his chest. The hand seemed to casually graze past, but the moment it touched Christoph’s small nipple, it stopped.

“……―!!”

It paused only for a moment, then Richard began to persistently knead Christoph’s nipple. Each time he pinched hard, Christoph shuddered, and gasped: “Ah, ah, ah!” Hearing those sounds, Richard grew even more ravenous, sucking hard on Christoph’s lips. Then, unable to bear it any longer, he moved down to his neck, and took his small nipple into his mouth.

“AH…………!!”

A moan-like cry escaped Christoph’s lips.

He trembled. A strange yet terrifyingly vivid sensation, as if that feeling itself was being sucked into him.

His breathing grew ragged. It seemed like he was about to cry. Listening to those ragged breaths even more clearly, Richard grew increasingly restless, relentlessly ravishing Christoph’s chest. The wet sounds of skin being sucked echoed throughout the bathroom.

“Stop, wait, strange, ……―.”

“Strange? What? It’s not strange at all. …………It’s hard, Chris.”

Richard murmured roughly, but even as he spoke, he couldn’t stop tormenting Christoph’s nipple with his tongue. His other hand continued to roughly rub his other nipple, while the hand that had slipped into his groin, stroking from his testicles, to his perineum, to the cleft of his buttocks, grew increasingly restless, urgent, and rough.

“It’s hard.”

Only when he heard Richard say those words did Christoph realize. He looked down at his naked body, his mind blank as if he’d been hit hard on the back of his head.

Both his nipples, gnawed and scratched by Richard, were flushed and erect. His penis was slowly hardening under the large hand kneading his testicles and perineum. His entire body, every cell, was heating up and tightening.

Christoph was fully aroused.

“……―!”

Realizing that made Christoph shudder. Immediately, his penis twitched hard, and lifted its head higher.

And right below it was Richard’s penis, even more erect and rigid than his own. At some point, it had begun rubbing lightly against his perineum. The fluid secreted from the tip of his penis wet his perineum, and from there, flowed down to the cleft of his buttocks.

“……Chris. Christoph. I want to be inside you.”

Finally, it seemed his mental endurance had reached its limit, as Richard whispered, almost moaning. Christoph couldn’t answer immediately, the feeling of his burning heart clogging his throat. Richard moaned again, painfully.

“Christoph. Please. …………Please. I want to be inside. I want to be inside you. I want to fill you. ……―Damn it. I’m about to explode. …………Please, Chris.”

Richard panted, groaning roughly. “Please,” the man he thought would never utter such words was pleading in his restlessness and anxiety. His face was clearly anxious, afraid that Christoph might hate it or be scared. His gaze wavered as if he barely had enough reason left to restrain his desires.

‘Please, don’t hate me.’

‘If you don’t allow it, I won’t hurt you.’

‘Please, let me.’

‘I’m going crazy. I feel like I’m about to lose my mind.’

Richard’s penis was right at Christoph’s entrance. With just a little force, he could enter, but he was still waiting for permission, not daring to intrude forcefully.

“……―.”

Christoph suddenly paled. Memories flooded back. Even though it had been a long time ago, his body still remembered clearly. The terrifying feeling of pressure and discomfort as his hard penis entered, tearing him apart.

Even now, he was finding it hard to breathe. Even now, these feelings were so intense and overwhelming that he couldn’t stay calm. That feeling would surely overwhelm all reason and thought.

He wanted to escape. His body instinctively recoiled, wanting to move his hips away from Richard’s penis. But he didn’t, because of the whispered words, “Chris, Chris,” repeated over and over again in his ear.

That unfamiliar man – Richard – burning with desire, yet struggling and refusing to satisfy that desire if Christoph disliked it – was right in front of him.

Because of that.

Just like this strange and suffocating feeling, the man before him was also strange and suffocating……It was so suffocating he wanted to hold him tightly.

So, Christoph embraced Richard. And at the same time, he gritted his teeth, closed his eyes tightly, and lowered himself as if sitting down.

“……―!”

“―――!!”

*Thud* There seemed to be some kind of sound.

Richard’s ferociously hard penis plunged straight into Christoph’s body. His body felt like it was being torn apart. He cried out in pain.

Although he had vaguely anticipated it, the agonizing pressure was beyond imagination, causing Christoph to unconsciously stop halfway, instead of sitting down completely as originally intended.

But if that was Christoph’s will, then what followed was Richard’s.

Richard, suddenly gripped by Christoph’s soft flesh, let out a gasp of surprise, and at the same time, looked at Christoph with an incredulous expression. His wide, dreamlike eyes glanced down at Christoph who was holding him tightly—no, rather, clinging to him in pain.

And that was his limit.

Richard couldn’t endure this half-hearted penetration any longer. He frantically pulled Christoph, nestled in his arms, closer. He lifted his hips more forcefully.

“AH……!!”

Christoph screamed, a cry of pain mixed with a sob. But that scream was drowned out by Richard’s moan of pleasure.

The powerful, decisive thrust happened only once. With just that one thrust, Richard’s penis was completely buried inside Christoph’s body.

Immediately, a warm, viscous fluid filled Christoph’s insides. Thick, slippery drops leaked from the tight space between them. It was the mark of Richard, who had just come inside him.

“……―!!”

A chill ran down Christoph’s spine. He shuddered at the strange feeling of being invaded, at the pain and pressure, at the wetness, all mixing together. His mind became muddled, unable to distinguish anything anymore.

Christoph trembled from the chaotic sensations, only able to cling tightly to Richard. Richard licked the ear of the trembling Christoph in his arms, whispering anxiously.

“I’m sorry. I couldn’t hold back anymore……But, this is just the beginning. I can’t stop now. …………Christoph. Christoph.”

Along with the incessant calls of his name, Richard began to slowly move his hips. Christoph let out short, high-pitched cries like a small bird. Not from pain. But from unease, from bewilderment.

“I won’t hurt you. I won’t injure you. I’ll never make you suffer.”

Richard continued to whisper in Christoph’s ear, then began moving his hips. The thrusts grew faster and more forceful. The wet sounds became clearer. The panting became more pronounced.

Christoph felt like his body was being shattered. Unable to escape the large hands gripping his buttocks, he bit down on Richard’s neck. Richard groaned, but then let out a laugh: “Christoph.” His voice was so gentle it made Christoph’s heart ache. The penis moving inside him swelled even larger.

Strange.

Christoph still felt strange and uncomfortable. Just like back then, he couldn’t stop trembling as the tingling sensations spread throughout his body like electric sparks. His heart pounded wildly. He still felt fear at the unfamiliar sensations invading his body and mind.

But even so, it was different from back then.

It was so different from back then. It made him ache, and want more, more, more. He didn’t know what he wanted. But his desire was growing. He wanted more.

What, why. While lost in his confused thoughts, Christoph suddenly realized.

He had it. He realized that he had it. And he realized that he had acknowledged it.

When he didn’t have it – or when he turned away, not wanting to have it – the desire hidden deep within him, the thing he thought wasn’t his, suddenly surged violently the moment he realized he had it. He had it, he didn’t want to lose it, he wanted more, more, more!

This precious thing he had never possessed in his life, he wanted it a little more……So please……, ……Please.

“……―.”

Christoph cried. At first, he didn’t even realize he was crying. He only realized he was crying, sobbing, when Richard kissed his lips and swallowed the sound. Instead of Christoph’s sobs, it was Richard’s anxious breaths that escaped.

“Don’t cry. Don’t hate me. Don’t say you hate me. Please……You allowed me. You accepted me. Please, don’t say it’s not like that now. Don’t cry.”

As if afraid of being pushed away by Christoph, Richard held him tightly, filling him even deeper. The arms that held him as if they would never let go were so tight that Christoph felt suffocated.

But Christoph didn’t feel suffocated. Compared to the memory of his heart constricting to the point of suffocation, he didn’t feel suffocated at all. More. More than now. He craved it.

Christoph lightly licked Richard’s lips as they sucked on his. A small, weak gesture like a kitten. But it was clearly a gesture Christoph actively offered him.

Richard held his breath. He remained motionless for a moment as if time had stopped, then in the next instant, he embraced Christoph with an explosive heat.

More. More, more. Overflowing desires, overflow until everything before his eyes turned white.