On second thought, he hadn’t really done anything wrong after all. It was true that it wasn’t something he could openly and frankly talk about with anyone – and it was also true that he absolutely didn’t want Richard to know, not even if it killed him – but just because he inserted a questionable toy into himself and then took it out, that wasn’t exactly a grave sin, was it?

Christoph tried to tell himself so. On the other hand, he also dejectedly thought that even though he had poured in a whole lot of lubricant, it still hurt this much just from taking it out, so it would probably be a long time before it widened enough, and he wondered if he perhaps needed more lubricant.

In the future, if Richard called while he was inserting that toy, he absolutely had to hang up, and Christoph was still wondering how he should answer if they could talk later and Richard asked why he had done that at the time, but after that, he didn’t call back.

Normally, they didn’t call each other frequently anyway, and Richard wasn’t the type of person who often called when on a business trip, so it wasn’t strange that he didn’t call back, but the truth was that after hanging up like that and having no further contact, Christoph felt a heaviness in his heart.

……Damn it. It’s all because of this thing.

Christoph sighed, staring at the toy into which he had poured double the usual amount of lubricant. Actually, after that, he didn’t want to see it anymore, but since he had already started – and moreover had to endure this torment – he had to see it through to the end, didn’t he? So, with that determination, he opened himself up again and inserted it.

But this would only last for two or three more days. Next Monday, Richard would return to the country, and most likely Christoph would go to Dresden that very day. Because it was a weekday, it was highly likely that he would just have dinner and then leave, but sometimes, after a long time without seeing each other, even if it was a weekday, he would stay overnight.

“……”

Christoph gently wiggled the toy that was currently inside him. These past few days, perhaps because he had gotten used to it, when he slowly pushed it in and pulled it out, wiggling it back and forth, the inside of his body quickly became throbbing. Right now, a numb sensation spread all the way to the front; if it went on like this a little longer, he would become erect.

But most importantly, though it was unclear whether it was his imagination or real, he had the feeling that the toy moved much more smoothly than at first. Perhaps thanks to his unceasing efforts, it had widened a little. He felt slightly exhilarated.

When Richard returned.

If at that time, during their conversation, he would probably have to talk about this disgusting thing, but what bothered him most was whether Richard would be happy.

How wonderful it would be to see that face, Christoph thought, and then looked at the calendar again. Three more days. Richard would arrive then.

‘Well then, until then, I’ll try a little harder.’ – Christoph thought that, while gripping the toy that was filling the spot that was starting to throb, then……

The phone rang.

“…….!!”

He started and immediately looked at the screen. It was already almost midnight, so the person who could be calling…… must be Richard.

Christoph hesitated for a moment. But true to what he had thought earlier, he decided not to answer. He didn’t want to hear that strange voice anymore.

But the phone kept ringing. For almost a minute, until it automatically turned off and went to voicemail, Christoph remained motionless, staring at the phone. Then finally, when the phone fell silent, he sighed.

“I didn’t do anything wrong, yet I keep feeling guilty……”

Christoph muttered, then gently pushed the phone under his pillow. The phone ringing at this hour was really bad for his heart.

But, just as he tucked the phone deep under his pillow……

*——Beep.*

This time, his heart really pounded.

The doorbell. And not only that. “Christoph!” – He also heard Richard’s voice calling his name from the other side of the door.

Christoph froze, staring blankly towards the door. The doorbell, the knocking, and the voice calling Christoph’s name rang out again, in succession.

“——!!”

Why. Why. Why. It was still nowhere near Monday. It was only Friday night now. Why was the person who was supposed to be in London standing outside the door……

Pretending not to be home wouldn’t work either. Standing outside, he surely saw the lights on inside, and if he had been standing there all this time, he must have heard Christoph’s phone ringing…….Damn it. He definitely knew Christoph had deliberately ignored his call.

Scrambling to his feet, almost tumbling off the chair, Christoph was just stepping towards the door when he suddenly realized the existence of that vile object slipping out from between his legs. He almost went into a panic and hastily pulled it out. Now was not the time to care about the throbbing pain in his lower abdomen.

He quickly tossed it into the wardrobe, threw on some clothes, and headed for the door. Meanwhile, the calls of his name continued to ring out.

“……—.”

Opening the door, he saw Richard standing there. He was wearing a neat suit as if he had just come from work, silently watching Christoph who stood before the door.

“——Why…… Why are you here? You said you’d be back on Monday.”

“……Because there was nothing to do there this weekend, so I finished Monday’s work and flew back on tonight’s flight…… I just called, I suppose you didn’t hear it.”

The ringing was loud enough to be heard even from outside, yet Richard still asked so calmly. Christoph frowned slightly. He didn’t want to lie, but he also couldn’t admit he had deliberately ignored the call.

Richard waited for Christoph to answer. But Christoph remained silent, so finally Richard had to speak.

“Christoph. Is something wrong?”

His tone was tinged with worry, sounding puzzled. Christoph looked up at him. Staring directly into Richard’s eyes as the man looked down at him, Christoph shook his head.

“No, nothing at all.”

“Really?”

“Yes. Nothing.”

Nothing special had happened.

Richard silently studied every feature on Christoph’s face, then suddenly reached out. He pulled Christoph into an embrace. Held him tightly. Christoph heard a soft sigh next to his ear.

“Don’t make me worry…… My thoughts run wild.”

As he uttered those words, his arms tightened around him even more. To the point of suffocation.

“……—.”

Christoph remained silent. Hearing the voice laden with genuine concern made his heart clench. Christoph slowly reached out his hands, then gently embraced Richard’s back. Then he soothed Richard.

“You’re back…… I missed you so much.”

As he whispered, the arms around him tightened further. As if all the restraint of the past few days, or even longer, suddenly burst forth, Richard hugged Christoph tightly, then kissed him. The kiss was intense and passionate, as if to make up for half a month of separation.

“……—.”

Christoph’s body trembled slightly. The familiar scent. “Christoph,” – The familiar whispered voice. And the hand holding and caressing his back. All blended together, making him feel lightheaded.

“……Must be because I’m tired…… so I’m hard.”

Richard, as he brushed his lips against Christoph’s cheek, chuckled softly and said. Just as he said, where he was pressing against Christoph, he was indeed engorged. Christoph also felt a flush of heat. He would probably get hard himself very soon.

“I probably don’t have enough patience to make it to the bedroom.”

With a deep, teasing voice, Richard gently cupped Christoph’s bottom. The familiar sensation from that large hand made Christoph swallow his quickening breath.

……Yes. He missed Richard. He had waited for him.

In that familiar embrace, as if made just for him, Christoph hugged Richard. And, just as he was about to open his mouth to say let’s go inside and continue, Richard suddenly froze.

“……—, ……?”

Christoph looked in surprise at the motionless Richard. Then, seeing his expression turn cold, Christoph stopped smiling too.

Christoph blinked in confusion. He didn’t know why Richard’s face had gone so cold. Richard silently looked down at Christoph. Then he slowly moved the hand that was cupping Christoph’s bottom deeper. That large hand slid between Christoph’s legs.

“……—!”

“What is this?”

Richard’s hand slowly rose. Soaking wet. Sticky liquid stretched into long strands between his fingers.

Christoph froze, stunned, when he saw that hand. And then he realized that the lubricant he had inserted into himself while using the vibrator was soaking his private parts.

“I’m asking what this is.”

Richard slowly rubbed his fingers together, examining the fluid, then looked coldly at Christoph and quietly asked again. Christoph stiffened, speechless. He couldn’t speak. He didn’t know where to start, or what to say.

Richard didn’t wait long. He stared intently at Christoph then strode into the room. When Christoph hastily followed, Richard had already thrown open the slightly ajar wardrobe door.

As if thinking someone was hiding inside, Richard looked up and down within the wardrobe, and immediately he saw the item carelessly discarded there.

And at this moment, even though he knew it was partly his own fault, Christoph cursed Riegrow more than ever.

“……”

Richard picked up the item, which was still glistening. On it was the same sticky fluid that was on his hand. He even flicked the vibration button, examined it thoroughly, then looked at Christoph as if demanding an explanation. His expression briefly furrowed, his knitted brows hiding a vague anger.

“Are you playing with this thing? Yes, playing with this is certainly better than playing with others, but why do you need it? Am I not enough for you?”

“—No, ——, ——, Rick, sent it to me. He…… said it was Taei’s, used, ……–.”

Christoph didn’t know where to start. His mind was blank, he couldn’t think of anything, just stammered out whatever came to his mind.

But as soon as Christoph began to explain the origin of the item, he realized he had said too much. He didn’t know exactly where he went wrong, but as soon as he said that, Richard’s expression turned completely cold.

“——Is that so…… So that’s how it is.”

Richard was silent for a moment, then whispered, looking coldly back at the item in his hand. Each time he flicked the switch on and off, the item made a *uzz uzz* sound……

“You said you don’t like intense stimulation, but if it’s his thing, you find it pleasurable? ——I tried to be patient, slowly adjusting to you, because you said you weren’t used to sudden arousal…… turns out it wasn’t necessary, huh.”

*Click* Richard switched it off. The *uzz uzz* sound…… stopped. He lightly tapped the item with his fingertip, then looked up. His cold gaze fixed directly on Christoph.

“Or perhaps…… You said you never felt comfortable during sex, so is that why? You don’t feel comfortable doing it with me? ——Don’t you know how your body reacts when you’re in bed with me?”

“Ha……” – Richard gave a faint laugh. His deep, unfathomable eyes now glinted with a cold smile.